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Still not feeling febulous, although slightly better. I find that now that I have all these routines in place, I glom onto them even more obsessively / desperately in times of gloomy need. This can be alienating for other people with whom I share my life and who may wish to live it in a somewhat more spontaneous fashion. No, you cannot make a chicken soup! Every bone in this house, every onion, every clove of garlic is accounted for in my weekly menu plans!!! (I recognise this as Not Good but when gloomy I glom.)

Also, I just had a strange reaction. Usually, I open LJ and it provides balm for my tender soul. But tonight, I felt so sort-of energy-less and gloomster, and suddenly LJ was like one big poster, assaulting me with its energy, with all these dozens of people going 'me, me, me' with their bewildering sets of icons. I scrolled tentatively and almost didn't post.

I will list my 'achievements', as this is what self-help people counsel me to do, not to angst over 'what I haven't done yet' but to affirm what I-have-done via a Done List.

Done List:

- Finished marking essays.
- Finished marking nearly all dissertations.
- Done (at least) ten minutes of writing on my book every single workday for the past three weeks.
- Done my FlyLady routines every morning and evening.
- Added '5 minutes piano' to my routine and managed to do it without missing a day since last Friday. I can play middle C for left and right hand, B, D and E. I can play Mary Had a Little Lamb. I played a duet with t'son.
- Been reading around St Augustine's City of God and Confessions.
- Went to garden centre, bought plants. Planted two of them in garden (cleared spots and pulled weeds for a petunia and achillea). Planted strawberry plant for t'junior son in pot and brachycome and nasturtium in pot.

Um. And that's about it. I bought two Bollywood DVDs on ebay but I haven't even watched them, I'm too gloomster.