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does anybody remember writing?
Nov. 20th, 2005 10:32 amWhatever happened to my writing? It is something that puzzles me.
Today I leafed through my ringbinder of posted fics. It contains about 35 fics, and another 15 or so lurk on my hard drive, never printed out. That makes about 50 fics in total, some short snippets typed out in a burst of fun, others long and wrenched out of me by my heart's blood.
The last real fic I posted (except for one Dementor sniplet) was in June 2003. 90 per cent of my fics were written between Feb. 2002 and Jan. 2003. So I wrote about 45 stories in one year, and then what? A trickle in 2003, and nothing in 2004, and 2005? Hahaha! Zilchy-poo.
What happened? I am still obsessed but I'm not posting any longer. I've not kept my hand in. I haven't even posted crap. Now and again I've dusted off old things and shined them up a bit but that's a bit of a desperate measure, after all.
I'm working in my mind on my long, long things. Long, long thing number one that ate my brain 1 1/2 years ago: D/D fic in HP fandom. I actually typed up a bit of it three days ago but mostly I'm writing it in my head and that's no good. That's fantasy. That's not fic.
Long, long thing number two: languishing on hold as I am embroiled in D/D but lurches to the surface at times (Desert Prince).
Oh, and not to forget the never-finished boring!Orli. Just two more episodes to go and why can't I write them? It used to take me 15 minutes max per episode.
( me, navel-gazingly trying to figure out the reasons )
Any points I have left out??
Well, that's off my chest, at any rate.
Now back to applying to this internal post I am applying for. Yeah, right, fat chance I'll get it, given the corruptness of my institution.
Today I leafed through my ringbinder of posted fics. It contains about 35 fics, and another 15 or so lurk on my hard drive, never printed out. That makes about 50 fics in total, some short snippets typed out in a burst of fun, others long and wrenched out of me by my heart's blood.
The last real fic I posted (except for one Dementor sniplet) was in June 2003. 90 per cent of my fics were written between Feb. 2002 and Jan. 2003. So I wrote about 45 stories in one year, and then what? A trickle in 2003, and nothing in 2004, and 2005? Hahaha! Zilchy-poo.
What happened? I am still obsessed but I'm not posting any longer. I've not kept my hand in. I haven't even posted crap. Now and again I've dusted off old things and shined them up a bit but that's a bit of a desperate measure, after all.
I'm working in my mind on my long, long things. Long, long thing number one that ate my brain 1 1/2 years ago: D/D fic in HP fandom. I actually typed up a bit of it three days ago but mostly I'm writing it in my head and that's no good. That's fantasy. That's not fic.
Long, long thing number two: languishing on hold as I am embroiled in D/D but lurches to the surface at times (Desert Prince).
Oh, and not to forget the never-finished boring!Orli. Just two more episodes to go and why can't I write them? It used to take me 15 minutes max per episode.
( me, navel-gazingly trying to figure out the reasons )
Any points I have left out??
Well, that's off my chest, at any rate.
Now back to applying to this internal post I am applying for. Yeah, right, fat chance I'll get it, given the corruptness of my institution.