crap day

I am having a crap day. Meh. :-( I feel listless. I had an interview today for a better-paid position in my institution and I didn't do well, I hadn't prepared enough and blabbed sillily. Now I feel bad. They haven't rung back which means I didn't get it. I hate my fucking institution but somehow not getting this thing makes me feel disappointed and worthless. Tomorrow t'h is going away to visit my parents with one of t'sons and I will miss them and be lonely. I can't remember now why we made this arrangement but it made sense at the time. I haven't prepared this half-term very well.

I feel a sort of yawing hole inside me and want to escape into LJ. But that is also a bad symptom. What to do?

a) engage in physical exercise to get the endorphins going? And if so, what sort of exercise?

b) write wraith fic and lose myself in fantasy fiction?

c) listen to my new CD of Dandy Warhols (I indulged in some retail therapy yesterday; I was already feeling low, and this is band wot i discovered via songvids) and go swoony while fantasising about wraith and Draco and maybe write some wraith fic, too?

d) pack for t'son

e) make dinner already! nobody can feel good on an empty stomach

f) do 15 minutes of Flyladyish stuff

g) write some more on my academic book

h) veg in front of the TV and watch... what?

i) Watch my favourite songvids for the thirteenth time?

j) Email and tig and tog endlessly?

k) Write feedback for three of the twenty-three fics I owe fb on?

l) Waaah. :-(