crap day

[lobelia321]

I am having a crap day. Meh. :-( I feel listless. I had an interview today for a better-paid position in my institution and I didn't do well, I hadn't prepared enough and blabbed sillily. Now I feel bad. They haven't rung back which means I didn't get it. I hate my fucking institution but somehow not getting this thing makes me feel disappointed and worthless. Tomorrow t'h is going away to visit my parents with one of t'sons and I will miss them and be lonely. I can't remember now why we made this arrangement but it made sense at the time. I haven't prepared this half-term very well.

I feel a sort of yawing hole inside me and want to escape into LJ. But that is also a bad symptom. What to do?

a) engage in physical exercise to get the endorphins going? And if so, what sort of exercise?

b) write wraith fic and lose myself in fantasy fiction?

c) listen to my new CD of Dandy Warhols (I indulged in some retail therapy yesterday; I was already feeling low, and this is band wot i discovered via songvids) and go swoony while fantasising about wraith and Draco and maybe write some wraith fic, too?

d) pack for t'son

e) make dinner already! nobody can feel good on an empty stomach

f) do 15 minutes of Flyladyish stuff

g) write some more on my academic book

h) veg in front of the TV and watch... what?

i) Watch my favourite songvids for the thirteenth time?

j) Email and tig and tog endlessly?

k) Write feedback for three of the twenty-three fics I owe fb on?

l) Waaah. :-(

Comments

[bunnysquee.livejournal.com]

oh, definitely no 'waaah' *squishy hugs*

how about a bit of flyladyish stuff and a bit of pottering about the garden while listening to the dandy warhols. i always liked them whenever i hear them but i have never actually bought any of their cd's ...

[lobelia321.livejournal.com]

Thank you! this makes me feel better. :-) I had forgotten about the garden!

[sheldrake.livejournal.com]

Sorry to hear that.

a) I am a lazy arse but even I have begun to acknowledge that exercise does make you feel better. Ride your bike round the block? Or simply jump and leap about.

b) This can never be a bad idea, surely?

c) Music! Yes! Always good. Incidentally, I went through a phase recently where I would listen to my ipod on the bus and different songs would make me think about different fannish-type characters. Often for no apparent reason. I can't think why Boys Don't Cry by The Cure, for instance, sent me into a Ray K from Due South reverie. But I digress.

d) Sounds like one of those things that has to be done whatever you feel like.

e) I suspect you've already solved this one. But yes. Empty stomach never conducive to feeling better.

f) Sounds helpful

g) Another good thing

h) Not much on tonight, I don't think.

i) Watch one, but not endlessly. Stress! Watch Stress!

j) Yes, but not too much or you'll feel worse. Set a time limit.

k) Write a few feedbacks and then do something else.

l) That's not a very helpful suggestion, is it?

In conclusion: I apparently think doing things is good, as long as they're actual things, and you mix them up for variety. If only I could follow my own advice!

Hope you feel better soon. Will be in touch about meeting up!

[lobelia321.livejournal.com]

You give such sensible advice!! Are you a sekrit counsellor? But then advice-giving is easier than doing yourself, and advice is often best from the people who know how weak t'human flesh is and so forth. Thank you! I will follow this list to the letter. Sort of. Because I had forgotten, you know, that I get up at 4.30 tomorrow morning to drive t'family to t'airport so my evening is actually only about another 20 minutes long...

I will:
a) tidy kitchen, do laundry, set table for tomorrow
b) make t'son a sandwich to eat on t'plane
c) walk about t'garden and do some weeding with t'Dandy Warhols in t'ear for about 2 songs' worth
d) watch 'Stress' (I love Stress! Did you rec Stress? I love it! But I also really like Bohemian Like You, the one that made me by the Dandy Warhols, because I like the song and the sentiment is so sweet)
e) go to bed with David Mitchell and long fic by kaneko about John and Rodney in Antarctica (do you know that one? it looks really promising!)

Thank you! You are so nice! When can we see each other? Bank Holiday Monday? T'fam is still away so that would be nice. I would txt but I have turned my mobile phone off in case some horrible person from my institution rings to tell me I haven't got the job. Being on sabbatical made me forget how much I loathe them all.

Doing things! Doing actual things! Mix them up! I will copy this on a post-it note. You can be my personal Flywich.

[sheldrake.livejournal.com]

Don't think I can make this weekend, bah! :( How about I get a weekday off work some time in the next three weeks? When would be good for you? If you really wanted to come here, to the Swich of Ip, we could, I dunno, flit about? Have some lunch? And ... watch some SGA! I've never watched it with someone else before! How exciting!

Bah, you know, I'm a bit fed up this evening myself. Everyone's gone out and I feel at a bit of a loss. Also, my uncle's funeral was today, and I couldn't go because of work. We weren't fantastically close or anything, but still. I don't feel good about it.

*fails to follow own advice*

[lobelia321.livejournal.com]

Oh, bugger, funeral and not being able to go. That sucks, as the Americans would say. I didn't go to my grandmother's funeral; the reasons were spurious, and now I regret it. I know what you mean.

Yes, I'm happy to come to the Swich of Ip and especially to watch SGA with you! I will bring you back your set, and do we have series 2?? I have it all on t'laptop but not in DVD format.

I can do:
Tues, 6 June
But better would be week after (although that seems frightfully far away)
Mon 12 June
Tues 13 June
Wed 14 June

Let me know!

And let's do more writing experiments. I feel a slight getting-bogged-down feeling again. Will you look at wraith fic for me as it progresses? Can I send you even rump fic in unfinished form?

[sheldrake.livejournal.com]

Let's do the week beginning the 12th - I'll look at my work diary and pick one of those three days, and go from there!

I only have series 2 of SGA on my laptop. I will try the discs in the DVD player because sometimes they work, but I doubt it somehow. But we could always sit round the table peering at the laptop!

And you are very welcome to send me wraith fic - yes, yes, send it all over. :)

[travelingcarrot.livejournal.com]

I would recommend all of a-e, and suggest rampant sex (or the nearest you can come to it) as the exercise. With Dandy Warhols in the background for all of it - especially Bohemian Like You.

[lobelia321.livejournal.com]

Haha re the rampant sex. T'h goes into overdrive mode before travelling and was at his office till past midnight. What to say? Men.

Maybe this is why I glomp onto McKay in SGA with such readiness: there's another workdriven maniac man. *g*

[sonicbookmark.livejournal.com]

Do all of the above, keep busy. And eat lots and lots of chocolate.

[lobelia321.livejournal.com]

Thank you, :-) I won't eat chocolate, though; I'm not all that fond of chocolate. Okay, I'll do a kinderschokolade bar every now and again. *g*

[rossywar.livejournal.com]

You know what you should do. When no one is around, play some Bollywood music loud and dance like a fool to it. :) Or go through your dvd collection just playing your favourite songs. For extra bonus happy points, try and copy the dances as well. It always cheers me up. :)

[lobelia321.livejournal.com]

Copying the dances! Wow, I'd never thought of that! Thanks for the suggestion!! :-)

[pecos.livejournal.com]

You completely neglected chocolate and a nap. No wonder the British Empire is crumbling! *hugs*