same day last year meme

[lobelia321]

My LJ entry, 28 February 2003.

My, my. I was in the throes of depression, and it shows. I was so negative and acerbic. I still don't "rite sequals", I'm pleased to say, but I have mellowed towards the Perfect Day series, and I have certainly mellowed towards Orlando, both of whom I love dearly, as a matter of fact. Well, the series slightly more than Orlando, but hey.

And I never finished the saga, heh. Nor did I veer towards the exclusive Manliness I foresaw.

But: I do feel much more cheerful. I am not depressed at the moment. I have discovered some mindblowing fics in HP fandom, no less. I have embraced the Maltese curls. I invented boring!Orli and Desert Prince!Orli. I am writing a narratological analysis of fanfic -- and it is possibly the latter that boggles me most and represents the biggest step since last year. It gives me no end of a kick to fuse these different aspects of my life -- well, aspects that I kept artificially separated while depressed. But applying Aristotle to fanfic and finding that it works and that it makes both Aristotle and slash shine the brighter -- that is such a delicious thing.

I spent an hour on the narratological analysis today and only got about 1/8 of the way into it. It's going to be ridiculously long.

Comments

[brightest-blue.livejournal.com]

*dives into smooch-orgy* I am so, so glad you're feeling better! There were times I really worried you'd just drop out and we'd never see you again. But here you are, applying Aristotle to fanfic- who could have imagined it a year ago?

[lobelia321.livejournal.com]

There were times I really worried you'd just drop out
Oh dear, was I really that bad? I didn't even notice. And the depression made me *dependent* on LJ! I wouldn't have dropped out. I just hated myself for going online. Which was not good.

[brightest-blue.livejournal.com]

No don't hate yourself because of LJ!! I'll chain you to it in any case, that way you can't blame yourself if you're hooked. You can blame me!

[bunnysquee.livejournal.com]

i'm so glad you're feeling much better. through it all, you kept your sense of humour and your talent for writing and entertainment, and i admire you very much.

[lobelia321.livejournal.com]

Thank you, sweet bunny, you are very nice to me.

[blithesea.livejournal.com]

*smooches you back*

Care to share any HP recs? We could trade.

And how is the state of Kätzchen? Surely you've run out of them quite some time ago...

[lobelia321.livejournal.com]

Lustre.

And one of the greatest fics I have ever, ever read in any fandom: Transfigurations.

And I hoard the Kaetzchen! I still have a secret stash!

[sheldrake.livejournal.com]

You've inspired me to look up mine now. Ah, how little some things change...

I have discovered some mindblowing fics in HP fandom

Thanks to you, I'm finally reading Lust Over Pendle! It's so good!!

[lobelia321.livejournal.com]

It is great, isn't it! Except that there is no sex. That is a drawback. I still haven't printed it all out.

As per earlier: I will never read old LJ again. The effect is sometimes retarded. I felt it today, not yesterday. Bad! Blah.

[sheldrake.livejournal.com]

Yes, the title is perhaps a tad misleading... Mine you, lack of sex in a story doesn't particularly bother me. Not that it's not very welcome if it does appear, of course.

No, never read old LJ. Just as bad as reading old diaries, you end up sinking in circles in a horrible self-analytical confused mess of a morass of general yuck. Or perhaps that's just me.

[lobelia321.livejournal.com]

Or perhaps that's just me.

No, that is me, too.

Yeuch. (Note obscure reason for choosing fish icon: because I wish to climb out of the mire of reading old diary and that reminds me of the first fish climbing out of the primordial mud to become a legged lizard.)

[sheldrake.livejournal.com]

I wish to climb out of the mire of reading old diary and that reminds me of the first fish climbing out of the primordial mud to become a legged lizard.

*climbs out of Scottish loch icon*

Ah yes - legs and fresh air. What a relief! You will need a lizard icon, in that case.

[lobelia321.livejournal.com]

Most salamandrously.

[childeproof.livejournal.com]

I've just found a forgotten brief diary from Feb-April 2000 and am huffing in amusement to myself at my apparent permanent illness and angstiness at the time. I was permamently propped up on pillows eating mango sorbet for sore throats and performing verbal demolition jobs on all and sundry with a pen dipped in acid. (Sweet 2000 me...)

That monkeypoo (?) feedback was hilarious. I was only thinking over the last few days, since I posted my latest hobbity fic to a community I've never posted to before, of relative literacy levels in different communities - as I've had my first ever non-ironic 'liek wtf wow' responses. Don't think I'll be posting there again. When I rite the sequal to it.