wow, feedback

[lobelia321]

How bizarre, unexpected and lovely! Today I got feedback for The Other Trailer, a fic written in 2002 (!!!). Two people at once commented in the LJ version of it. Who knows how they suddenly found out about it. It made me feel quite good!

My god, who knows on what fb I'm missing out on now that I can't access yahoo anymore?? Ack, does this mean I have to go back and update the feedback link to LJ on every single one of my archived fics??

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[tvillingar.livejournal.com]

Which reminds me, I haven't gotten around saving your fics on my hd just yet. I think I've become quite paranoid after getting many unpleasant surprises in the form of websites disappearing overnight.

[lobelia321.livejournal.com]

I hate it when websites disappear. Whole archives! And especially LJ usernames (*glares at you*).

I have a zilliontrillion fics on my hard drive due to help-it'll-all-go-way-one-day paranoia.

Did you know that [Unknown site tag] is in Helsinki on a student exchange?

[lobelia321.livejournal.com]

cimorene111.

[tvillingar.livejournal.com]

*meeps* *hides* At least I didn't jump between journals leaving no trace but changed my username.

What irritates me is people locking their fic away (in LJ or otherwise). Sure, it's their right to do so but it's a pain in the ass. There are brilliant stories people are reccing left and right and I can't read them! For a fic archive, I might be ready to through the song and dance to get the password but personal sites? Forget it. /rant over. Whups.

Yep, Cimorene is here - or in Turku specifically (it's only two hours away). She's living with her girlfriend wax_jism, don't know either of them very well but we've met a few times.

[lobelia321.livejournal.com]

Cimorene has a girlfriend?? And it's Waxjism?? Whoa. I'm definitely out of the loop.

[tvillingar.livejournal.com]

I guess this is one those things I thought is public knowlegde but maybe it's because I live closer to them (and they're friends of a friend)? Cimorene has begun the second year of her studies, I think, and they seem very happy together.

[sophrosyne31.livejournal.com]

oh, lobelia, i have no idea about your technical problem but i just went and re-re-re-read 'the other trailer' and now i'm gasping and wheezing and sputting just like poor viggo, but oh god, from laughing and fondness and oh, oh, i think when you wrote it i was far too shy to give you feedback but now i'll say no-one, NO-ONE wrote fic that delighted my soul quite as much as you.

oh lord. i'm still panting.

i sometimes quote viggo: "The balls must swing free in the night." No one around me knows what the hell I'm talking about, but the scansion is beautiful.

[lobelia321.livejournal.com]

Three words: I love you.

And long time no hear!! So nice to hear from you again! I'm not sure I've ever talked to you on Lj, actually. It all goes back to the yahoo group days or something, or maybe my memory is just a sieve.

You are such a sweetie to write feedback. It really warms my soul. Especially as I haven't been writing for ages and been feeling down and whatnot. Heh, maybe I should re-read that fic myself, I can't remember half the things I put in it. I just remember what it felt like writing it: resistance and torment at first, then a breakthrough as I morphed into Viggo's pov, and then it just all flowed out. I've become so mired in angsty fic, it's good to remember that I used to have fun doing humour fic, too.

I can't believe you didn't feedback because of shyness!!

[sophrosyne31.livejournal.com]

no no i love YOU.

i actually did end up feedbacking you, in a positive pother of nerves, you were the very first person i sent a feedback email to. and you were terribly nice and when i said i was coming over to england you offered to meet up, but then your kids were on holidays and i didn't have email over there to organise anything and it never happened. probably just as well as i would have spilled my tea and blushed like an eejit.

but oh lobelia, i have remained to fond of your fics. lines from them stay in my head still. i loved 'the other trailer' and 'a perfect day' series, and i adored, ADORED the john/bern ones, because you made those gentlemen so absolutely loveable and real and tender and amusing (and i quite like older men myself). and 'up shit creek' was so marvellous it was the only fanfic i printed out and took with me overseas.

funny isn't it, being scaredy. i'd be amazed if anyone was scared to leave me fb but no doubt it happens. i must say i do miss writing fic (my imagination just went plop out of ideas one day) and i goddam miss fb.

i shall arrange random drops of fb frothering for you in the future.

and you write great angst fic, but i think your comedy, while stupendously funny, was also very delicate and human and you always managed to wring humour out of the natural embarrassment and awkwardness of your characters, and isn't that one of the elements of tragedy also?

jaq and fi and duckie assure me you're very lovely and next time i'm in blighty they promise me an outing, hopefully to meet you. they are all lovely ladies and a cup of tea with them was a delight.

ah, lookit me babbling on. anyway. *salutes*

[sophrosyne31.livejournal.com]

er, "assure me you're very lovely" might have come out sounding a little, um, trepidatious. look, i know you're lovely. um. as you were.

[lobelia321.livejournal.com]

I remember this now! I suspect this was during the time when I was still in the throes of depression and hadn't yet learned that seeing people is one of the best ways to combat this! When I feel low, I tend to curl up into a ball at home and not see or contact anybody. The only people I'll see will be the children, and those I'll tend to yell at. :-( I have to be forced to go out and meet people because I will not want to, I will feel bad and boring. Next time I will make a greater effort!!

But I am basking in your feedback. God, I'd forgotten what it feels like. It's exactly as you say: damn, I miss that stuff. I haven't posted fic in ages and ages, just angsted about not writing. I am actually writing again, but this has gone on for only 2 days now so.. well, fingers crossed! (it's that novel-length opus about Draco/Dudley, *shoots self*) I'm also writing my non-fiction to-be-published-and-get-me-out-of-my-shitty-job book which comes with even more angst and torment.

Thank you also so much for your thoughtful thoughts on angst versus comedy. You have no idea what balm to my soul this is! I'm sort of daring to think about my writing again (I've been suppressing all memory of it) and it's nice to get some outside perspective. being able to make people laugh was one of the great discoveries of posting and writing. I had never ever in a million years imagined that my mere words could have this effect.

And your ideas dried up?? Was this fandom overload? Or the shrivelling of the writing impulse? What fandom do you haunt these days, if any at all??