six weird things about myself
Apr. 20th, 2006 02:31 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
lobelia321So I was tagged by ![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
remainunashamed to do that meme where you list six weird things about yourself.
Why I have been procrastinating over this: I don't like memes like this! I am not a very self-revelatory person although I have got a lot more self-revelatory over my years in LJ. Also, the word 'weird' stumps me. Because what is weird? It assumes some kind of standard of 'normalcy' against which deviation is measured in terms of 'weirdness', and that bothers me on an ethical, ideological and political level. Also, what's weird to one person is unweird to the next. People seem to be posting little quirky habits so that 'weird' gets interpreted by most as 'cute' and 'personal quirk'. I am not a very personal quirky cutey person so this stumps me also. Also, in my youth, people (often girls -- I was at an all-girls school and oh, the social control) often called me 'weird'. That was my persona: kooky. Because I wasn't one of the flirty girls with jewellery and a boyfriend. It made me very unhappy not to have a boyfriend but I inhabited the kooky persona because that's how social control works. Either I was kooky, or I was a daggy outcast. So I have a personal gripe with that kind of stamping of weirdness as well. As you who know me know, I am a big stander-upper for the weird and the rare, the not-so-pretty and the unwanted (Kiran Shah, Dudley Dursley, dementors, John Rhys-Davies, John Noble, Bern Hill, orc/Billy). I try to dig beneath the outer 'weirdness' shell to find the pathos within. But I don't want to go all melodramatic and list pathos-type things about myself!
So I am honestly stumped and feel unable to do this meme. 'tis an aporia. Sorry if I'm being difficult or prissy or over-interpreting some fun LJ thing that somebody probably unthinkingly whipped up. But maybe, Remainunashamed, if you could be more specific in the type of thing you want me to list? I could do what I have for breakfast...?? :-)
remainunashamed to do that meme where you list six weird things about yourself.Why I have been procrastinating over this: I don't like memes like this! I am not a very self-revelatory person although I have got a lot more self-revelatory over my years in LJ. Also, the word 'weird' stumps me. Because what is weird? It assumes some kind of standard of 'normalcy' against which deviation is measured in terms of 'weirdness', and that bothers me on an ethical, ideological and political level. Also, what's weird to one person is unweird to the next. People seem to be posting little quirky habits so that 'weird' gets interpreted by most as 'cute' and 'personal quirk'. I am not a very personal quirky cutey person so this stumps me also. Also, in my youth, people (often girls -- I was at an all-girls school and oh, the social control) often called me 'weird'. That was my persona: kooky. Because I wasn't one of the flirty girls with jewellery and a boyfriend. It made me very unhappy not to have a boyfriend but I inhabited the kooky persona because that's how social control works. Either I was kooky, or I was a daggy outcast. So I have a personal gripe with that kind of stamping of weirdness as well. As you who know me know, I am a big stander-upper for the weird and the rare, the not-so-pretty and the unwanted (Kiran Shah, Dudley Dursley, dementors, John Rhys-Davies, John Noble, Bern Hill, orc/Billy). I try to dig beneath the outer 'weirdness' shell to find the pathos within. But I don't want to go all melodramatic and list pathos-type things about myself!
So I am honestly stumped and feel unable to do this meme. 'tis an aporia. Sorry if I'm being difficult or prissy or over-interpreting some fun LJ thing that somebody probably unthinkingly whipped up. But maybe, Remainunashamed, if you could be more specific in the type of thing you want me to list? I could do what I have for breakfast...?? :-)