they have blood on their hands
Apr. 24th, 2007 10:50 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
lobelia321Sensational and appalling news greeted me first thing at work today: a colleague in the music department committed suicide yesterday. It seems that he had been very depressed recently, and stressed by the voluntary severance situation at my institution. Apparently, there was also a health problem. I still haven't got my head around this; it seems absolutely appalling. Colleagues are walking around shellshocked. Management has blood on its hands.
I now know that there is nothing I can do personally to better my situation at that place: it is not me, I am not responsible. I did not know this colleague well at all but the advent of death is always relevant and larger than any of us. It is our future, after all. And it reminds me more than anything else could that life is more important than death, and that the dead are beacons to remind of this, and that nothing, absolutely nothing at work, is worth this.
But isn't it dreadful? It's come to this. I work in a place of unreal dimensions.
I now know that there is nothing I can do personally to better my situation at that place: it is not me, I am not responsible. I did not know this colleague well at all but the advent of death is always relevant and larger than any of us. It is our future, after all. And it reminds me more than anything else could that life is more important than death, and that the dead are beacons to remind of this, and that nothing, absolutely nothing at work, is worth this.
But isn't it dreadful? It's come to this. I work in a place of unreal dimensions.
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Date: 2007-04-25 03:02 am (UTC)(no subject)
Date: 2007-04-25 06:00 am (UTC)(no subject)
Date: 2007-04-25 06:44 am (UTC)(no subject)
Date: 2007-04-25 07:45 am (UTC)This sucks bigtime. Do look after yourself!
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Date: 2007-04-25 02:08 pm (UTC)(no subject)
Date: 2007-04-25 02:46 pm (UTC)i didn't even get around to mentioning this in my own lj - as it was sadly overshadowed by what happened on monday - but someone i knew through a community tv project committed suicide last week. the feeling that surely someone could have somehow stopped them - said or done *something*, although it's hard to say exactly what - is horrible.
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