Unwell

[lobelia321]

I'm not well, really, and haven't been for a few weeks, and it's not getting better. I'm not myself. I'm on anti-depressants and will forge on with these for a few weeks but so far they just seem to make my extremities tingle and my concentration go hay-wire.

Um, yes. Just needed to get it out, finally.

Comments

[andraste-oz.livejournal.com]

First of all, hugs and pats to you. It's hard to get it out, I know.

How long have you been on the antidepressants? Mine made my concentration go totally up the spout for a few days, and I was thinking "If it's going to be like this, I can't stay on these" - then all of a sudden it's as if something clicked and the brain just went back into place and I could think clearly again. Hopefully the same will happen for you.

And - best wishes, I really hope you start to feel better soon.

*hugs*

thank you

[lobelia321.livejournal.com]

How long have you been on the antidepressants?
Only 9 days.

then all of a sudden it's as if something clicked
This is very reassuring. I'm not a medication person myself at all usually but I thought I just need something to get me through this Christmas period. Then I want to see about counselling in the new year.

Thanks for your kind comment.

[lazulus]

Oh. Am glad you have said it. Have been really worried about you. I do think that putting it out there is part of dealing with whatever is wrong. I know how you feel about stuff like this, so I will simply say that, if ever you feel the desire to talk to someone, I am around.

I do so hope that you stop feeling unsteady with the drugs very soon and, if not, then do go back to your doctor and ask for them to rethink which ones you are on. There are many different anti-depressants around, and they suit different people. So don't think that, just because these may not be right for you, that there is no alternative.

thank you

[lobelia321.livejournal.com]

Have been really worried about you. I do think that putting it out there is part of dealing with whatever is wrong.

Yes, I think that's absolutely true, and I have only today managed to tell two rl people for the first time so yes.

Thank you loads for kind comment. Strange that you worried -- I hadn't even realised it showed. :-)

[shinysparkly.livejournal.com]

I'm glad that you got it out too. And I hope that they will find the right meds for you and/or other things will help! *big hugs* It's tough starting meds...mine made me wonky for a while too..but then it evened out. :)

thank you

[lobelia321.livejournal.com]

I'm glad that you got it out too.
Yes, I think you're right, it helps. Only today I told two rl people, too.

mine made me wonky for a while too..but then it evened out. :)
This is reassuring to know. I'm not normally a medication person but I just needed something to get me through Christmas. I want to see about counselling in the new year.

Thanks for your kind comment.

[dantana.livejournal.com]

*hugs*

I hope that you start to feel better.

thank you

[lobelia321.livejournal.com]

Thank you very much for your kindness. It's very nice.

[blithesea.livejournal.com]

:-/ I hope you'll be better soon. If there's anything I can do to help, please tell me.

thank you

[lobelia321.livejournal.com]

Thank you for your kind thoughts. I do really appreciate it.

[crazybutsound]

I'm really sorry to hear this. I amglad you got it out, though. I know from experience that it helps to share even a little bit of the burden.
As for the drugs, the same thing happened to me. Only it didn't get better at all, and I didn't see why I should keep taking them when they were only making me feel worse. Which is why my doctor changed them, which finally worked. So yes, if it keeps that way, do go back and ask for something else. What works on one person, doesn't necessarily work on another.

And also, the drugs weren't enough, but combined with the proper kind of help, I did get a LOT better, so I hope you do too. My thoughts are with you. And even though I don't know you or anything, if you ever feel that talking to a stranger who might have had kind of similar experiences, do let me know, I'd be happy to listen and help as much as I can.

thank you

[lobelia321.livejournal.com]

I amglad you got it out, though. I know from experience that it helps to share
Yes, I think you are absolutely right. Only today did I manage to tell two rl people, too.

the same thing happened to me.
It's very interesting and reassuring to find out how many other people share this experience.

And also, the drugs weren't enough, but combined with the proper kind of help,

I'm not usually a medication person at all but I just felt I needed something to get me through Christmas. I want to do counselling in the new year or as soon as possible.

Thank you for your kind comment. It is very much appreciated. :-)

[gabbyhope.livejournal.com]

*hugs you*

Sometimes it's best to let things go. Even if it's just as simple as pushing a button and posting your concerns to strangers.

Love you, dear. *kisses* Everything rights itself in the end.

thank you

[lobelia321.livejournal.com]

Even if it's just as simple as pushing a button and posting your concerns to strangers.

Yes, I'm glad you got the weirdness of this! But I also told two rl people today, too, so that triggered it.

But thanks so much for your kind comment. I really do appreciate it. :-)

[ex-zarah5186.livejournal.com]

I'm really sorry to hear that, dear. Seems that lately, quite a few people haven't been doing very well and fighting depressions and the likes. Maybe something to do with the winter and they grey and the lack of light?

Whatever it is, I hope you'll be better very, very soon. For now, all I can do is give you the internet version of a tight hug.

thank you

[lobelia321.livejournal.com]

Seems that lately, quite a few people haven't been doing very well and fighting depressions and the likes.
Yes, it's actually reassuring to know that I am not the only one.

Maybe something to do with the winter and they grey and the lack of light?
I think you are actually not so wrong there. Although this goes back to summer and my disastrous holiday but the return was triggered by gloomy December and the looming Christmas season.

Thanks so much for your kind thoughts. They are really nice to have -- and the hug. :-)

[alisalohv.livejournal.com]

*hugs to you honey*

And I know it's not the easiest thing in the world to admit that, but I certainly can understand depression. Suffer my own bouts with it from time to time.

It's good to be able to admit that it exists instead of treating it like a pink elephant. And I hope that the meds will help you also, hon.

*more hugs to you*

thank you

[lobelia321.livejournal.com]

I know it's not the easiest thing in the world to admit

No, this is true, especially as I tend to be the type of person who bottles things up.

Thank you very much for your kind comment. I really appreciate it. :-)

Wish I was there...with chocolate...

[pecos.livejournal.com]

Darling, as I've already discovered, 94% of the slashers otu there are either on drugs, or should be. You've just changed catagories, is all. Gald you joined the club. I'm starting to think that being into slash is more a symptom, rather than a cause. AS for the drugs, they've done really incredible things with anti-depressants in the last few years. Can tweak your seritonin levels to just the right pitch and you'll wonder how you EVER could have felt so shitty. The only ill-affect I've ever had is tasting raspberries...things could be worse. There's no reason on earth to be miserable when these problems can be fixed, and there's no reason not to reach out to your adoring friends here, waiting and wanting to help.

Love you, bug-lover. Formicating (sic)the back of your neck and kissing you on the cheek.

thank you

[lobelia321.livejournal.com]

And I don't even like chocolate! ;-p

94% of the slashers otu there are either on drugs, or should be. You've just changed catagories, is all.
This is very funny and I'll keep it in mind! Hahahah!

I'm starting to think that being into slash is more a symptom, rather than a cause.
God, I can feel another 'why slash' session coming on... Certainly, I have had my reasons in the last few months for escaping into my virtual world. Symptom... but of what?

Thanks so much for your kind thoughts and especially the formication, *g*.

[ladymoonray.livejournal.com]

Lobelia, don't feel you have to reply to this. You don't. I admire your bravery for admitting that there is something wrong - it's the hardest part, and you've already done it. Everything from now on will be a little bit easier.

It's important to give the drugs time to work, but it's also important that if you've had them for three weeks or a month, and they're still making you feel bad with side-effects but no better in yourself, you get them changed. If you don't do that, the drugs will be adding to the problem and you don't need that.

Andraste is right - one day you'll wake up and realise the drugs have worked. That doesn't mean you'll never have another bad day, but they'll get you through the worst.

One more thing - your LJ friends are the best alternative therapies around!

*hugs and sympathy*

thank you

[lobelia321.livejournal.com]

Thanks so much for your kind thoughts, *hug*

Yes, it's strange telling people but telling one set off a chain reaction. I then told another rl person, and before I knew it, I'd told LJ. But it does have a good, emboldening and normal-making effect.

your LJ friends are the best alternative therapies around!

Now, I don't know whether to be grateful for this alternative or terrified! :-)

[soulstar.livejournal.com]

*hugs* I know when I first went on anti-depressants, it felt really weird, and actually telling people about it did help and made me realise that I was by far not the only one. I did have to change to different ones after a bit, as the original ones I was given didn't really suit me, so don't hesitate to tell the doctor if those things don't go away. However, as I think a few others said, those aren't uncommon side-effects - I had them when I started on the second lot of meds, and they did indeed go away, and my brain clicked back into gear. I really hope that these do the trick for you, and tons of luck with the counselling when you get that arranged. *hugs again*

thank you

[lobelia321.livejournal.com]

Thanks so much for your kind comments. I continue to be amazed at how many people share this experience - which is reassuring and makes me realise how good it was to tell.

:-)

[cruisedirector]

Sorry you are having such a rough time of it! Some of it might be the season too; I'm SAD-sensitive and this is never an easy time of year. Hope it gets better soon!

thank you

[lobelia321.livejournal.com]

Thanks for your kind comment. I'm sure the weather plays a role but it's mainly the *season* -- Christmas cheer and all that, alas (or not, as the case may be). :-)